Sunday, February 19, 2012

Anorexicism (Anorexia)

I'd love to be healthy. But health just isn't my best friend. All healthy foods are usually high in calories. Well that is, if I need to fulfill my healthy necessity. It is so hard to be healthy and skinny at the same time, you'd have to devote to it. So as a result, I gained weight.

And it is so hard to lose it back.

Then so I went back to the easiest way to lose weight, anorexia. I somehow became addicted to it. The no-energy feeling, the clearings of your mind and soul, and probably starving. Though the last one's not for me because I have never starved in my life, even if I haven't ate for days.

Because I have been well-acquainted with Anorexia in the past, I have known the side effects of anorexia. So to avoid that, I will stop when it starts to harm myself. And I will eat cheese, drink milk, vegetable juice, or some fruits once a day. I will stop before I look like this

and hoping to look like this

anyway I'm not up for Bullimia. I find it so difficult for me to puke. I have done it before, throwing up like 8-10 times by taking pills. But losing weight wasn't my goal back then. I was just depressed then I took pills. But it was lovely, and I did lose weight. Though I do not like puking. Oh, and I didn't binge eat then. In fact, I didn't eat at all. I think I puked because I did not eat. That's how the pills work at least.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Incubus - Drive

I know it seems like I have been posting music videos lately, but this song is just so fucking fine

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

The Exies - Slow Drain

If anybody notices, why does the title kind of reminds me of "Drain you"?

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Ancient Astronauts (or Aliens)

Take a close look of that picture above. He was Pakal the Great, ruler of the Maya polity of Palenque in the Late Classic period of pre-Columbian Mesoamerican chronology. During a long reign of some 68 years Pakal was responsible for the construction or extension of some of Palenque's most notable surviving inscriptions and monumental architecture. He reigned sometimes around the 7th century BCE.

Well, need  I point it out? Can't interpret the picture? Well, according to Von Daniken, that dude is doing some controlling in his spaceship with the computer and he is doing some typing and it does look like somekind of spaceship. I mean look at the fire coming out of the back. So, unbelievable right?

Oh and guess what? Thomas Alva Edison didn't invent electricity. Electricity has been among us since few centuries after Jesus was born.

And again, unbelievably, there are lots of cave paintings, manuscripts, artifacts, ancient writings that describes astronauts, spaceships, or aliens. You just can't believe how much ancient description/pictures are there of astronauts and aliens thingy.

There are also, architectures that are so "modern", infact beyond our technologies today that seems so "impossible" to be done long ago without "help". The Giza Pyramid, Pumpapunku, Stonehenge, Moai of Easter Island, and way much more.

Need to see for yourself?

To watch the next part on youtube

The origins of many religions are interpreted by von Däniken as reactions to encounters with an alien race. According to his view, humans considered the technology of the aliens to be supernatural and the aliens themselves to be gods. Von Däniken claims that the oral and written traditions of most religions contain references to alien visitors in the way of descriptions of stars and vehicular objects travelling through air and space. One such is Ezekiel's revelation in the Old Testament, which Däniken interprets as a detailed description of a landing spacecraft.
(Source: Wikipedia)

My opinion? Well I think this might be true, though well- who knows for sure? This is a mystery. But, I stand true to my beliefs and religion. But though maybe, some ancient civilization might be fooled by an intelligent being imposed as Gods. But, then again- who knows?

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Indonesia: The Stereotypes

Ah, what a unique country we are- where the parents tell their kids to not marry westerners, and in the same time it seems 'cool' to have a blood from white people's blood.
Where the lower class thought of eating 'white people's food' as cool, but can't live without indonesian food for more than a month (especially without nasi/rice) which we claim to be the best food in the world.
Where the middle/upper class speaks disdainfully of Americans, but watch hollywood movies and listen to American music
Where the the people (especially the older generation) speaks anti-extramarital sex (and not just the muslims, so do the Catholics and Christians) , but the adults practice fornication as much as other countries in the world
Where the citizens of the big cities in Indonesia adapt the European or american lifestyle, but fights over cultural heritage with none other than Malaysia
Where the people don't drink due to religious issues (but some of us does too), but over than 165 million people smoke (yes, my mother, my father, my uncle, my aunt, and my friends smokes)

It seems that we are hypocrites,
well to tell you a secret- we are

Even me myself, sometimes is. It's just in our trait that we are not aware of. The funniest thing is, we blame other people (not necessarily from other countries) to be hypocrites while we ourselves actually are hypocrites, at least in our everyday

Another example, we complain about the practice of corruption in the government, but we somehow manage to manipulate our given power in workplace etc. for illegitimate gain.

Where as I was giving you the bad traits from our people, we have that unique traits too such as

Aside from being hypocrites, other than bash about other countries stereotype (like other countries do- especially toward Americans from what I have seen). Indonesian people bash about the cultural stereotype of different regions, because one region seems to be funny to others. So we do these stereotype bashing thingy in our own country. Probably because Indonesia has more diverse cultures than the land of Europe itself.

Oh another fact, we Indonesian women, who most of us born with olive skin, prefer to have whiter skin- preferably a little pale than our tan skin. Quite the contrary huh?

Where the people eat liver, tongue, lung, and intestine regularly. We can make any part of the body a cuisine because we spare meal and learn not to waste food.

We are blessed with lots of natural resources (this includes very fertile land. I have unintentionally thrown rambutan seeds in my backyard after I ate it and a few months later it grew), but yet poverty remains widespread

We have a lot of superstitions from different regions, and it is a part of culture

We are a religious nation, where people must have religion although it's free to embrace whatever religion you want. But we are the biggest muslim population in the world

We don't have surname here in Indonesia only the Bataknese and maybe some culture of other region/province. However some children still adapt their parent's name. I.e. my middle name is a variety of my mother's name. And my last name (not surname) is exactly the same as my father's last name (again, not surname)

A lot of girls are skinny without even trying

Our ghosts stories seems dreadful, but when you think about it the ghosts are funny-looking

Because of the extremely hot weather/climate, most people prefer to stay indoor in their air-conditioned room. We despise walking, and there are a lot of reasons for that. One, the extremely hot weather and intensive sun (mostly in Jakarta) are blackening our skin (as I told you the women prefer whiter/paler skin). However, our skin endure towards intensive sun so we use sunblock not for sunburn, but to avoid tan skin. Two, it is so hot that if we do activities out door, even just a 15 minutes walk- we'd be sweating like a pig. Three, there are no decent pedestrian sidewalk or zebra cross. There are no lamps as well, so the drivers tend to run over you when you are crossing the streets. Four, there are lots of car pollution. Five, because people who hangs out outdoor like in warung/tempat parkir or stuff are of the lower class people, the girls usually get 'flirted on' but in a bad way. Such as being talked to in a cheesy but insulting line, or getting your ass/other part of the body dabbed. And they are bad looking man.

The middle/upper class are so lazy they never do house chores. Most of the middle/upper class families you see, who mostly live in big cities has lots of servant. The number of servant usually depends on how big the house is and how much kids they have. It is so affordable for almost every middle/upper class to have servant because their salary is only $50 per month. So almost everyone can afford a servant, except the servant communities themselves. The kids/teenagers grow up without knowing how to do the dishes, iron the clothes, sweep/mop the floor, doing to laundry, making the bed, or other household stuff because it has been taken care of. But then when we get to college and live in dormitory we learned how to do it ourselves.

Another unique fact, most people can afford servant but yet poverty and famine is everywhere throughout the country. Maybe by people I mean middle/upper class.

Yes, we are that unique

I should probably take you from another whole of different approach of what Indonesia is, instead of my personal observation and opinion of the stereotypes

Indonesia, officially the Republic of Indonesia (Indonesian: Republik Indonesia), is a country in Southeast Asia and Oceania. Indonesia is an archipelago comprising approximately 17,508 islands. It has 33 provinces with over 238 million people, and is the world's fourth most populous country. Indonesia is a republic, with an elected legislature and president. The nation's capital city is Jakarta. The country shares land borders with Papua New Guinea, East Timor, and Malaysia. Other neighboring countries include Singapore, Philippines, Australia, and the Indian territory of the Andaman and Nicobar Islands. Indonesia is a founding member of ASEAN and a member of the G-20 major economies. The Indonesian economy is the world's eighteenth largest economy by nominal GDP and fifteenth largest by purchasing power parity.

The Indonesian archipelago has become an important trade region since at least the 7th century, when Srivijaya and then later Majapahit traded with China and India. Local rulers gradually absorbed foreign cultural, religious and political models from the early centuries CE, and Hindu and Buddhist kingdoms flourished. Indonesian history has been influenced by foreign powers drawn to its natural resources. Muslim traders brought Islam, and European powers brought Christianity and fought one another to monopolize trade in the Spice Islands of Maluku during the Age of Discovery. Following three and a half centuries of Dutch colonialism, Indonesia secured its independence after World War II. Indonesia's history has since been turbulent, with challenges posed by natural disasters, corruption, separatism, a democratization process, and periods of rapid economic change.

Across its many islands, Indonesia consists of distinct ethnic, linguistic, and religious groups. The Javanese are the largest—and the politically dominant—ethnic group. Indonesia has developed a shared identity defined by a national language, ethnic diversity, religious pluralism within a majority Muslim population, and a history of colonialism and rebellion against it. Indonesia's national motto, "Bhinneka Tunggal Ika" ("Unity in Diversity" literally, "many, yet one"), articulates the diversity that shapes the country. Despite its large population and densely populated regions, Indonesia has vast areas of wilderness that support the world's second highest level of biodiversity. The country is richly endowed with natural resources, yet poverty remains widespread.
(source: wikipedia)

There are a lot more that I can tell you of, but it would take too much of this page and it has no ends. So I guess this is enough

P.S. The things I stated my opinion are infact my opinion of the Indonesian stereotypes, not everybody is so. But then this is what I observed in the city I live in, Jakarta, and maybe there are a whole of different lifestyle in other region (like I said Indonesian's culture is a diverse culture). I might be a little lost of the Indonesian stereotype, because it's not as blatant as other countries stereotypes where you can learn through the popular cultures. Indonesian stereotype is not so popular in the popular cultures.

Oh, and Indonesian food kicks asses!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

In Heaven's Name

Lately I'm under the influence with jazz or alternative jazz musicians, and Sade is one of my favorite.
Especially her videos, it' just so james bond-ish spy-ish type and she's like one of the bond's girl/ femme fatale thingy

Well anyway

Last New Year Eve

Happy New Year 2012 people!

Well, the mayans say this new year will be the last new year ever, I say
the fuck with the mayans I don't care if the world ends tomorrow

Well hopefully not, God please don't make this end so soon

Anyway I just wanna say that I will not be continuing that Survival French thingy because it is already graded with my computer teacher...

So, to the hell with that, it was hours of making and truthfully I don't really understand those

Anyway, you may want to celebrate your christmas early