Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Anorexia, Bullimia, oh wait there's more; Orthorexia Nervosa

"Other questions concerning those who may be suffering from orthorexia provided by Davis on the WebMD (2000) website are: Do they spend more than 3 hours a day thinking about healthy foods? When they eat the way they're supposed to, do they feel in total control? Are they planning tomorrow's menu today? Has the quality of their life decreased as the quality of their diet increased? Have they become stricter with themselves? Does their self-esteem get a boost from eating healthy? Do they look down on others who don't eat this way? Do they skip foods they once enjoyed in order to eat the "right" foods? Does their diet make it difficult for them to eat anywhere but at home, distancing them from family and friends? Do they feel guilt or self-loathing when they stray from their diet? If yes was answered to two or more questions, the person may have a mild case of orthorexia
(source: Wikipedia)

Yes, yes, yes, a million times- yes. The planning of the menu, the stress if you don't know what to eat for tomorrow, the condescending of people who don't eat "right" (remember my earlier post? yeah that is one of the main prove), the guilt- and self-loathing when I stray from my diet- you know, let me tell you something, I have once- bail on school because of this. I was too stressed of planning out my menus, to eat the "right" diet, and I was feeling very guilty and uncomfortable because I don't eat the "right" diet- so there that morning, I cried. Yeah, I know ridiculous, right? But it did happened. And I was supposed to take my midterms then, but I didn't. Because I was too "stressed", I was crying, and I had a temper tantrum. So I told them, "I don't feel like it." They made me go to the guidance counselor.

Lately I have been reluctant to eat outside, except if I had plan it for days earlier. And the boost of self-esteem when I eat "right". God, this is like seeing myself on mirror- only in the form of text. I know it sounded stupid, excuse my stupidity. I knew it, I am mental. I knew there was something wrong with me all along, but I've never figured out what it is. So, turns out I'm mental- anyway, I have never known this such thing exist. So what is this about anyway?

According to Steven Bratman, Orthorexia nervosa, as he originally defined it, indicates an unhealthy obsession with eating healthy food. The term is derived from the Greek "ortho", which means "right", or "correct", and is intended as a parallel with anorexia nervosa.The difference between Orthorexia and Anorexia is he said, "While an anorexic wants to lose weight, an orthorexic wants to feel pure, healthy and natural. Eating disorder specialists may fail to understand this distinction, leading to a disconnect between orthorexic and physician." He also said, "At times (but not all times) orthorexia seems to have elements of OCD. It mat also have elements of standard anorexia. But it is often not very much like typical OCD or typical anorexia."

OCD, huh? Well my mum is a huge time OCD and I was raised OCD by my mum. Well thanks mum maybe that what caused me to bare orthorexia nervosa. Hahaha jk mum. But seriously though, she's freakin OCD.

Point taken, although there are no biological disadvantages of eating healthy as in orthorexia nervosa, (of course there isn't- except if it's too much though, and if there's a wrong concept about the "right" diet) but there's this obsession that could damage some way in life. For example, if we're eating for three hours about what food we should eat, it would do some harm, wouldn't it? Three hours, try whole day- that's what happened to me. And the self-loathing, self-conscioussness towards food- isn't healthy. And in my experience, tiring. Sometimes I wish I had a food nutritionist, a chef, and they'd just tell me what to eat and what time to eat. Or sometimes I wish I'd just be an anorexic because it seems easier that way.

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